summer time.

so i'm off work until august 25th.
i repeat, i do NOT work until august 25th.
so what does that mean, you might ask?
well other than cleaning my house everyday, it means no paycheck.
this is insane!!

last year at this time i had three, wait two, jobs.
which helped the income flow.
but now i'm broke, nothing to do, it's crazy!

friday we are getting our engagement pictures done.
i'm sooooo excited! i can't wait.

in other news, i refuse to buy myself another piece of clothing until i lose 5lbs.
this hopefully will motivate me to lose weight.
i'm tired of living life like this.
i am going to lose 50lbs.
i know it sounds like a lot, but i need to.
i need to in order to live a long life.
i need to in order to be happy.
i need to in order to be healthy.
and to stop being sick.

i am excited, scared, and i need support, a lot of it.
and i need encouragement.
it's so scary leaping into this, but i know it's what is best.

happy summer.